Thoughts on the Dying Process

I insert my late wife's thoughts.  She died of Kidney cancer of the lymph glands on 19th January this year.  She was very positive to the end and tried hard to learn and share her experience for the benefit of others.

Please feel free to view and read and share with anyone who would benefit.  Debbie's horror was dying young and mine is living without her but her message is one of hope. xxx

  • Morning Ian

    Seeing how stressful you envisage your weekend being. Maybe the answer is an exhausting walk for the dogs (but do not wear yourself out too much), then placing said four legged friends at opposite ends of the house and then the two legged friends opening a nice bottle to share - loud music might help to block the barking!!  Relax and am sure everything will fall into place (and you can dream of the calm that will return when you have finished dog-sitting).  Have a good one.Jules xx

  • Hi Ian

    Fingers crossed for the weekend. Am not sure if you are a saint or an idiot.  Dog sitting for two and with your own.  One cat here is enough.  Currently strecthed our asleep on the shed roof in the sun - if it were not so uncomfortable nI might join her.

    The weather over the weekend is forecast as good so hopefully you can get out for some longish walks and as Jules suggests then put them at opposite ends of the house.

    Good luck.

    Gill

  • Hi Ian,

    Bet you had a good weekend. Anyway I hope you did. If not you'll be destressing as we speak.

    Was the weather kind to you? If it was it will have made the dog caring easier. I got out quite a lot with ours. It's lovely again this morning.

    Look after yourself Ian.

    Hugs

    Annabel. xx

  • Hi Annabel,

    Yes weather here is and was good over weekend. I had a good but not stress free time and only glad its over.  On the positive side my daughter is having my Jack tomorrow which helps me so I suppose the browny points built up will come in useful .  What do you do with yours when you go away?

    Kind thoughts

    Ian x

  • Hi Jules and Gill,

    My short note to Annabel was meant for you two as well .  Hope you both had good weekends.  Do let me know

    Lots of hugs

    Ian

  • Hi Ian,

    Keep those brownie points coming. Always useful at some point.

    When we go away I have been lucky enough the last few times to have friends dog sitting. One friend who stayed in our house has gone and moved to Scotland so I now have another mutual friend who has 2 little dogs who would have her but this next week mynearest neighbour who lives about 1/4 mile away(on foot) over the fell is having her as she has recently lost her lab and is looking forward to the company whilst her husband is away.

    When you live out in the sticks like this I find people are very helpful and caring to each other.

    Anyway must get on expecting a tree many any moment.

    hugs

    Annabel xx.

  • Hi Ian

    Glad you got through the weekend even if it was not stress free.

    What would we do without "browny points" I wonder.  I have always tried to help out others when I can without any expectaction of them returning the favour but since my diagnosis I  have been surprised by the amount of people offering to help out (I admit some that I have not helped out in the past) but one co-worker did say when I mentioned this that I had colleted an awful lot of browny points in my time with the firm so now it was time to collect. 

    Sorru distracted as i had to open the door for the cat.  Can someone please invent something (other than a catflap) that will allow a cat in and out when she wants, either that or let me know how to teach her to use a key!

    Hugs to all.

    Gill

  • Morning Ian

    Glad to read to made it through the dog-sitting weekend and that you are getting a chance to get your own back (though am sureJack does not cause your daughter any problems).  How did your cat-loving ladyfriend cope - well I hope.

    Am on the last day of a few days leave (wish I was off a bit longer as could get used to having the choice of what to do with myself).  Managed some time out in the garden (loved it but body a bit achy!!) and also had a lovely day out in Windsor with a friend yesterday.  Today all being well we are out for lunch as its my friends birthday and we are taking her for 'tapas' at a new Spanish restaurant that has opened locally.  Hoping it can lift hubby a bit.  He seems more than happy when I go out alone but though he has told the nurse (and me) that he is feeling fine and has not had to resort to extra pain relief in the last two weeks still 'just sitting'indoors most of the time.  Told the nurse last Thursday no point in going out when nothing to go for.  She told him (she can get away with it!!) it would be good to get the exercise as he is not doing himself any favours by being sedentary when he is able to be mobile.  Sadly thats not his way of dealing with non work life and I am not sure what to say or do anymore other than just let him do his own thing.

    Hope the reason Jack being looked after was for you to enjoy a social time rather than work!!  Take care of yourself. hugs Jules xx

  • Hi Jules,

    Yes, Jackson was being looked after for me so that my lady from Hove and I could have some time together ~ we visited Chichester for the day.  ... We are really getting on very well ... she is bringing joy back into my life that had been long gone for a while and I wasn't sure I would ever see, at this level, again !  ......I am a very lucky boy !

    I think all you can do with your hubby is encourage a bit but essentially as you have found just support.  Even with my Debbie and her positiveness and willingness to share, I could never really ever comprehend how she was thinking and coping inwardly!  Even now looking back with hindsight I still can't get a grip on it.  The mental horror and sadness of a seriously terminal person living with this knowledge is incomprehensible to those of us who are not.  We can only really try and make their lives as happy and fulfilled as we can BUT on their terms.... and that can be difficult I know....

    Anyway the sun is out and its a lovely day for all of us to be alive in, share and appreciate.....

    Hugs and kisses

    Ian x

  • Ian

    Just lovely to hear that you are having a lovely time in your new relationship and sunshine too.  I enjoyed a day out in Windsor with a friend on Monday and it really does lift the spirits and as you say gives you a reason for making the most of the life we have whilst we have it. Hubby has gone to visit an old friend this afternoon and I am in control of the remote - yay and am also trying very hard not to expect too much from him.  He was never going to enjoy retirement (always said he never would!!) and it must be very hard for him.  As you know only too well its impossible to put yourself in their place and try understand.  In the end I have told him many times I am here for him but if he chooses to shut me out thats his choice and I have to respect  it.  His sister and brother are off to visit Isle of Man at end of the month as they plan to move there as soon as they can find a property to share (and of course sell their own houses) so am waiting to see what fall out that might produce from hubby as I think that will be the last we get to see them ( though they proclaim to be close siblings we only really see his brother and wife a couple of times a year now and his sister has said she needs to get away from everything here as she is not coping).  I am not sure moving to a different places with no friends around is going to help her cope any better but hubby says they must do what they feel is right for them and I have to agree with him.

    Enjoy yourselves and hope that your dog welcomed you back with open paws.  Jules xx