my mum has terminal cancer. recently her treatment has stopped working and the drs are looking to give a new one. we're waiting on blood test results before she starts it and shes really unwell. i feel so guilty. i'm still going to college and spending time with my friends when she cant even get out of bed. i'm making plans for gigs with my band and shes stuck in the same room all day. i want to leave college and quit my band and not do anything but be with her. i'm so scared that shes going to die soon and i wont have spent enough time with her. i dont have another parent so me and my sister look after her. i just feel like an awful daughter and that i'll regret not spending more time with her. i hate seeing her so ill and not being able to do anything. none of this is fair. i dont know what to do
