Living not dying

I was diagnosed with cancer back in 2012 lung cancer. I lost most of my left lung due to it as they were hoping it was contained in the upper left lobe being the biggest part of the lung the left lung as two lobes while the right lung as 3. The left upper lobe is the vast majority of your lung on the left which I had removed. I entered adjuvant chemotherapy. To mop any up. I went into remission in April 2013 in September 2013 I asked my oncologist if they would bring my next scan forward. He asked why I said because it’s back. He was treating my brother also we both said we could feel it. So I had my ct scan brought forward to the following week. I has said right from the word go I want total honesty nothing less. Got the results in less than a week true to my request he had always shown me my scans and given me total honesty. He turned the screen around. And I saw the nit of the left lung full of cancer as he was saying I am sorry there’s nothing else we can to for you. I pushed and pushed for a prognosis. He said 6/8 months. I looked at him and how on earth could he give me that long based on what I had seen. He said with palliative chemotherapy. Without 3 weeks. Suddenly being told I was terminal my blood ran cold but I am not a person who cry’s. One thing I did say was no I will beat this you watch me. I have always been a person who figs her heels in not a team of wild horses could move me. They put me down as being in denial. I had to see Macmillian after I saw the consultant. I went and I told her the same. She said I don’t think you are fully aware of what you have been told. Me reaction was do not insult my intelligence. I have never had my feet more firmly on the ground. I have just been told I am a dying women. What do you want tears, why me, fall apart. Well first will tears stop the prognosis no. Will why me, no will falling apart stop the prognosis. No. So please what exactly do you want from me I can’t give you tears I can’t give you why me when I see children dying of cancer. I can not fall apart because everything I have now left is for me to fight for my live. I don’t need people like you insulting my intelligence just because I don’t react like everyone else. Look at my eyes I know full well I am dying but I don’t have time to waste with you insulting me. I need what time I have and times become mighty precious with that if you have any more to say you are going to have to come with me. I don’t have the time to spare. But you mark my words and remember them. You do not really me but you watch me beat this sit back and wait because I will. With that I walked out. Yes I did beat it. May 2025 I was discharged from the lung cancer clinic as a lung cancer survivor. It’s amazing what the power of the mind can do. But you have to believe in yourself and believe you can beat it. It’s shocked surprised so many cancer experts that I am still alive today. We all can do the same but you have to be really all in you can do it and believe you can and believe in yourself. I saw lots of people cry I knew then they had already given in my brother gave in then another brother got it he too gave in.i hope there’s more than one person understands what it takes to beat this nasty evil disease. Believe you can and keep that belief. Believe in yourself because trust me it’s not a easy ride you will go through hell and back. I climbed St Peter’s stairs a few times at that time I just wanted someone to open the gate but they didn’t because I wanted to survive more than that gate opening. Please please believe me it’s not a easy challenge you are taking on. But remember one thing the desire to live is one of the strongest feelings we get. So believe in yourself and have faith you can survive I am living proof