Hello Peony54,

its hard to find the words of reassurrance that l could offer to you. Its a horrid place you find yourself with no obvious route of escape. Coping with the daily pressure that comes from that is a skill that takes so much from one to master, so its little wonder there are times where you fall short of maintaining control of keeping all those positive balls up in the air.

l have a limited understanding of where you are coming from having gone through a struggle with a stage 4 bowel cancer with spread to the liver. Sadly, as l know you would expect l cannot provide any answers, just the knowledge that your post over your feelings has not gone unheard or unresponded to. Its such a little thing to know in the big scheme of things, but l hope in some small way it is of help and comfort to you.

Hopefully you are able to find the gentler of paths to travel along that comes with a few layby's to pull into and take a rest before setting out once more,

David

Thank you so much for your kind words David they mean a lot. To know I am not alone in this gives great comfort.