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Blank wall - been told my cancer is terminal. I've been stuck in hospital for 11 days and I can't do anything

SusanLinda
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So I am told terminal.  Supposed to go to hospice to assess care package then home for short while.  Cancer is galloping along.  I can't breathe without oxygen.   I'm in hospital in a side room,  no TV. I look at a blank wall.  Can't move from my chair,  even sleep in it.   I'm looked  after,  fed and cleaned up but I wanted to go to TV  room today,  everyone too busy.  I've been staring at  my wall now for 11 days.  Honestly dying becomes more welcome by the day.  I HATE leaving my daughter but I might as well be dead.  Its nearly 1am and I need help.  

  • Hi SusanLinda, 

    I hope you don't mind me stopping by but I just wanted to check in on you and make sure you're o.k.

    I'm sorry no-one was able to get back to you when you made your post last night but I really do hope sharing your thoughts and feelings helped somewhat. 

    I can't begin to imagine how difficult and upsetting this must be but if you can, try letting your family and the hospital know how you are feeling so they can provide you with the practical and emotional support that you need at this time.

    Hopefully some of our members will share their thoughts and advice with you soon but in the meantime, we are thinking of you SusanLinda and sending you all our strength and support.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

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