I have regrettably received the devastating news that my wife's ovarian cancer that she was originally diagnosed with at the start of 2024 has been given a terminal diagnosis. Originally, she had been given Taxol and Carboplatin along with immunotherapy drug, Avastin and the first line of treatment was a success which had shrunk the tumours and got her CA125 level down to normal. She had continued with Avastin until the end of last year but was taken off with a suspected stroke which had turned out not to be the case. Unfortunately, her mental health had deteriorated rapidly and then she had blamed everyone for not recognising the early symptoms despite the fact that ir is very difficult to detect early and it had been missed. Also the cancer had returned at the start of 2025 but our marriage had been torn to shreds and it was simply just a matter of me supporting and standing by her which was all I could do. She did have second line treatment with Gemcitabine and Carboplatin which at first seemed to work and her CA125 levels had fallen significantly. Nevertheless, she had a lengthy stay in hospital from January to March having a permanent paracentesis drain fitted as well as digestive orders. She had come back home in the spring and her mental health had improved a little bit but as we progressed into May and June, her mental health had deteriorated again and she was once again in her self destruct mode and stating that she did not want to be around. Her physical health had also started to go down hill again and has been in hospital again for a lengthy stay since the beginning of July. Unfortunately at the beginning of August, she was told by her oncology doctor that she was not fit enough to have Cyclophosphamide tablets and was told there was nothing else that they could had done to shrink the tumour which had already been impeding her bladder function but was also having an effect on her kidneys and had to have urinary stents fitted.

Although I do not have what she had, I feel that I have suffered really badly over this period to lose my wife initially as the person that she had used to be had already passed away so I had been grieving that loss for her mental state. However, I now face the prospect in the weeks and possibly months ahead of being widowed and do wonder how I am going to cope after her passing. I know that some people will say that time is the healer but regrettably, this had always been something that I was dreading and unfortunately, it had come to pass in reality but not yet with her only being in her mid-50's. I also know that I am not the first and definitely will not be the last but do have two daughters in their 20's who I am going to have to rely on in the short term. I am also having to think about selling the house as I do not want those memories and are also thinking the unthinkable that I would like to find another lady in my life such that I do not grow old alone. I know that I will be told not to rush things but at least I do have a steady job. Seeing your partner dying from an incurable condition and also seeing the breakdown of 30 years of a relatively happy and stable marriage to come to an abrupt end is heartbreaking and I feel that I had done everything in my power to avoid this situation but did not succeed. The medical staff at the hospital have also done everything they could had done but unfortunately, they have only delayed the inevitable.