Hi all, I wondered if anyone could relate to this situation or is in a similar boat? 

So my Mum is at the end of life with cancer and is now spending those last days/weeks in a hospice. She's already been in there for 5 weeks but the signs are all there, we're nearing the end :( . I'm incredibly close to my beautiful Mum. She's too young and it seems so unfair, she's only just turned 57 and my heart hurts so badly for her. 

Basically we didn't think she'd live this long. She's well outlived the prognosis she was given. We brought Christmas forward as we didn't think she'd see it. And ever since that last chemo treatment last year in November when it had stopped working things have slowly gotten really intense with family. It's so hard to explain especially when I'm conscious of not making this super long but because we've lived on borrowed time family have been more and more involved (understandably). My Mum was always the glue of the family bringing us all together and now these past months everyone's gravitated towards me and I've at times found it extremely overwhelming. I've voiced this many a time and I do at times suffer with my mental health so it's all been added stress. 

Fast forward to now. I've felt like my experience of Mum being towards the end has been hindered by the stress of family. I was constantly getting texts from everyone asking how she is, just felt like I was bombarded on the constant and couldn't be present with Mum. I'd be going home and the texts were still going and I just couldn't switch off. They'd be texting Mum all the time and if she didn't answer they'd message me. Emotionally I'm going through a lot and it's taken it's toll. I created a family group chat to make it easier but in the beginning I'd still get messages outside of it. There's so much to this situation but I'd be typing way too much. I just feel saddened that this is the end. I didn't much get that time to cuddle mum and watch all her favourite movies (we managed a couple) because it's been like a revolving door of visitors. I get that everyone feels entitled to that because they're family but I'm her daughter, the closest person. We've been inseparable all my life. We're best friends and no one on this earth gets me like she does and now she's not at all got the energy or with it enough to watch her fave films or just be able to hold a conversation. I think my family don't get it at all, feathers have been ruffled since I spoke up about my feelings. From the offset it should've been stricter instead of people just coming and going as they please because now it's much later in the day and I can't do those things that me and Mum always said we would near the end. I've just genuinely felt so suffocated by family. They can't understand my point of view. Some of them are my mum's age and still have their mum. I'm hurting so much. I feel like when mum passes I can't wait to push these people away and I'm shocked at how I feel but I'm angry that the end has just felt so hindered by it all. I hope I'm making sense. I'm not a selfish person. I'm not trying to keep Mum all to myself, I just wish more consideration could've been given to the mother/daughter relationship. I'm not sure I've explained this well, my head's all over the place.