My poor dad has been diagnosed with stage 4 colonrectal cancer, started oral chemotherapy today but have give me a letter from the consultant, which details that they have discussed that the chemo is just to possibly shrink and control for around 2 years
I am devastated, I feel as though I am grieving already and my dad is still with us, I can't sleep - keep waking around 2am and my mind is all over the place. I have an 11 year old daughter, so I try my absolute best to be strong for her and for my mam, but underneath I'm falling apart. I can't be without my daddy, I'm so scared and I just don't know what to do. We have a holiday abroad booked in about 10 weeks time and I don't know whether I should cancel and stay close at home to my mam and dad, or still go for my daughter.
I didn't know what replies I am hoping for from this, but I just needed to put down in words exactly how I am feeling and had no one or no where else to do this.
Thank you for listening
