My Dad has cancer. It’s progressed too far for treatment and we are told it is palliative care only. I’m beginning to realise what that means. Dad has secondaries in his liver and lungs but we don’t know where the primary cancer is. He has a bowel problem but nothing can be done. That is really hard to accept. I understand that an anaesthetic would be a really big risk, too big a  risk but it makes Dad feel like he is worthless. He’s not big on sharing emotions so when I feel he’d benefit from talking through his fears and feelings with a McMillan nurse I don’t think he will. 
I was with dad yesterday and he asked for my sister to come and we phoned for an ambulance. The paramedics thought it was pneumonia. He was in hospital a week ago with pneumonia but the hospital have just phoned. He has covid . 
I really think this could be the end.