Hello! 
 

I hope it's okay to post here, not really sure where else to turn.  
 

I'm a 25 year old woman and currently in the process of watching my beloved grandfather nearing the end of his life. I've lost people before but I've never experienced this kind of anticipatory grief before- I don't have my father in my life and my grandparents are like second parents to me. I've lived with them for periods of time and can't imagine my life without them. My grandad went into hospital as an outpatient for a scan to investigate some back pain 2 months ago, come to find that not only did he have a serious infection in his spine, but he had aggressive bladder cancer which couldn't be treated due to the infection. As a family we've gone through a host of emotions as he's been under the care of urology for well over a year and no tests were carried out despite obvious symptoms, but now we appear to be approaching his last weeks/days and I'm finding it so hard to come to terms with. He's just turned 88 so he's no spring chicken and I feel like I should be grateful to have had him for so long, so I feel quite guilty taking time off work due to stress and the huge emotional toll it's taking on me, but he was climbing ladders to fix the roof a year ago! 
 

Not sure if the objective here was to rant or to get advice, but would love to hear from others who've been in a similar situation:)