Hello Cindylou

I'm so sorry to hear that your fiance's health has deteriorated further and that the two of you only have a short time left together. Life can indeed be incredibly cruel. 

The rollercoaster of emotions that comes when a loved one has a terminal cancer prognosis can be exhausting and it's understandable that you're feeling sad and angry at life. 

You mention in your post that you've struggled to get hold of Macmillan. I presume that this is the local nursing team that you're trying to contact. Do you have any other support CindyLou? Does your fiance have anyone regularly involved in monitoring his health or in caring for him? Do get in touch with his GP surgery if he doesn't or if you're struggling to get hold of the team who are supposed to be supporting you. Sometimes a call from another health professional can spur things into action. 

If it would help to talk things through with one of our nurses for some advice and support you're most welcome to call them. They're available Monday to Friday 9 am to 5 pm on 0808 800 4040. 

Undoubtedly this is a very difficult time for you all. Know that the Cancer Chat community is here for you CindyLou as a safe space to offload and ask questions if it helps. 

Sending you all my very best wishes, 
Jenn
Cancer Chat moderator