My mum was diagnosed with lung cancer and secondary brain cancer  out the blue in July 21... she's only 65 always on the go and doing for everyone around her and one day she came home from shopping and started to say things that didn't make sense then she couldn't speak and started to foam from the mouth and her face looked drooped so we thought she was talking a stroke seconds before this she was cooking tea fine turned out it was lung and brain cancer, she got the brain surgery and they were over the moon at removing it all then she went through 4 weeks of radiation treatment every day and after that we felt like that was the worst dealt with, 6 weeks after radiation treatment she was weaker couldn't walk nor eat then barely keep meds down with a little water and they kept sending nurses out giving her sickness injections and said it was side effects from radiotherapy but we knew something wasn't right she started getting muddled up again and one day her face was unrecognisable as it was so swollen and in the town I live getting a dr out is like winning the lottery! Eventually (as we weren't giving up) we got a good Dr on call out who listened and he admitted her to hospital, she was in nearly 2 weeks and not even 1 visitor allowed but eventually got told the cancer was back and spread in the brain!!!! She got home a few days later but we are still in shock as all the professionals said they were hopeful of a full recovery in time, yet 7 months after first diagnosed we get told they don't think they can do anything and shes deteriorateing fast and I am also angry as you hear people say how much the cancer nurses helped them through it yet no one has been near mum or even spoke in depth with family! I suffer mental health and I am really struggling to deal with this, I'm the youngest daughter of 3 big brothers and I don't know what to do without her! I have started to become afraid to go up daily as if I don't see her deteriorate then it's not happening but then I feel so guilty as I love her more than words can explain but mentally I don't feel strong enough to deal with this and she doesn't deserve any of this she's the closest thing to a living saint there is, why is it always the good ones! If I could I would take her place, I wish someone could tell me how to get through this a little easier! X