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Letting go emotionally

MollyRedSkirts
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It's so hard to let go, my family are everything to me. I think I am getting there in acceptance of the inevitable, particularly when I am in pain. Emotionally it is very hard though, the hardest thing of all.

I have done some practical things like a will,  that helps me.

Mostly it helps me to know I leave behind a wonderful family, that was surely what it was all about.

So to anyone here struggling watching a loved one leaving, just give them a hug and tell them how they made you the person that you are. Priceless.

 

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    I'm not religious at all, anti it actually. I'm a 46 year old married man. Your point about family hit home.

    My own diagnosis (low grade lymphoma, hopefully I'll succumb to something else, but one never knows these things) has made me think, *really think*, about my mortality for the first time. There are two things that give me great comfort.

    First I will be reunited with my mummy in the void that awaits. I lost her (heart disease) nearly ten years ago and still think about her most days.

    Second the knowledge that my son, 8 years old, will still be here. I'm anxious about the fact that I might not be around to impart the wisdom I've gained in my own life, but I trust his mother to the job of that and teaching him all about his daddy, when he is old enough to understand.

    My diagnosis was an awakening, there's no doubt about it. In one way it's made me a better person; I certainly stopped worrying about things that don't really matter! I think I'm a little kinder. It helps that since my mum departed I stopped fearing death. I fear a difficult process of dying, but not death.

    I wish you well and thank you for your message,

    L

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    Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. My father is terminal and having this prospective has got me thinking about his last days. 

    Wishing you and your family so much love and blessings.

    Thank you again xx

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    Hello

    I'm new to this chat group.  I have my MRI on Monday.  I know it's going to be bad news.  Strangely, I can feel it in my body.  It's so weird the way the world can change so quickly.  All I can see are well people going about their business, and I don't feel part of it anymore.  I don't know how I will tell my grown up children.  How old are your children?  I feel like my world will be just about cancer and I don't know how it will be.  For a split second when I wake up, everything is normal.  Then I remember.  Where do you find the positives? I'm having to take Diazepam and Beta Blockers to keep me calm.  My friends are telling me it will be so much better when I get the details.  Will it?  I've been fighting the doctor for so many months to take me seriously, I've run out of fight.  Not religious but thought I would pop into the church today.  It was locked. Just my luck.  How are you getting there in acceptance?  The advert says 1 in 2 people will get cancer in their lifetime.  Everyone looks healthy to me.  I feel I want to shout out in the street "Does anyone else here have cancer?" I hope you're having a good day today and have smiled. x 

     

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    I received a terminal diagnosis for my mum today. She did not want to know but I did so the doctor let her leave the room whiles I had a chat. 

    I feel weird and thinking how short a time I have with her.

    Your post made me feel better. 

    Thank you

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    I found out my Mum was terminal the same day as you.  

    I also feel weird (as well as v upset of course).  Very strange concept.  Knowing the person who gave birth to you will be gone soon. 

     

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