I'm so sorry to read about your results. I can imagine this must be incredibly difficult.
In terms of how you're feeling and your question, make sure you keep talking to others. That could be friends or family close to you. In addition, forums like this one can offer support and guidance, and a safe space to write down your thoughts and concerns.
A third option is to get support from a charity such as Macmillan or Maggie's. They have a range of helpful resources and speaking to them can be helpful.
Try to take things a day at a time and as I say, it's important to get support from others with this.
