I lost my mum in June to cancer

she was very brave throughout her illness, she was 78 when she died. I was there with her throughout her illness, in between working, I would spend as much time with her as possible. I do feel grateful that I was able to care for mum in her home as so many people do not have that choice. Mum had Carer's coming in 3/4 times a day for palliative care 

my sister was with me the last few days of mums life and this was the most traumatic time as mum was unable to do anything for herself, had lost so much weight and was no longer wanting her food. We would walk out if the room when the Carer's came in to wash her and turn her because we couldn't face seeing her so frail anymore.

mum had the death rattle for 2 days and this really traumatised myself and my sister as we thought this was causing her discomfort as was so loud and crackling like she was choking. We kept calling the nurses out as was so worried. On the morning of June 05th she took her last breath with me and my sister holding her hand and stroking her head. We were so traumatised that we just sat there after for about half an hour before we could even call anyone.

now I keep getting images of the last few days and I just keep breaking down crying as mum was the most beautiful caring soul, everyone loved her. She touched so many peoples hearts. I really find it so difficult without her as she was truly not just my mum but my best friend