Hi Mollysmomm,

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. Please know we are always here for support if ever you need it. It can be simply to write things down - like you have done here - or to reach out to others. I'm sure there will be others here who have been through or are going through something similar, so hopefully you'll receive further replies soon.

I know that anniversaries or memorable days can be especially tough. Everyone's journey of grief is different so keep on taking things a day at a time. Focus on the positive memories of your mom and other positive things in your life now, while also taking the necessary time to reflect and let your emotions play out.

You mention you are hiding it well - do also make sure you're giving your grief its outlet, and speaking to others about it can be helpful. Hopefully you have others around you to talk to, but if not or if you want to speak to someone neutral, have a look at Cruse. They have various resources and a helpline, which may be useful in terms of just talking things through.

Take care of yourself and wishing you all the best,

Ben
Cancer Chat Moderator