I was Mum's sole carer and I cant get over her sudden loss. I cry hard very day and stay in bed mostly. I go over every small argument we had or negative thing i said without thinking though we always made up. I just dont think i was good enough. I dont want to live on ive tried for over 1 1/2 years but if anything things are worse. The rest of the family have their own familys and didnt see her much but theyre ok because when they occasionally did it was all pleasant. They asked about her estate right away and i wouldnt take a penny.One also critized the house for smelling saying the commode wasnt emptied the day they visited. I started to realise i hadnt done enough for mum and its killing me. We didnt have a good day the day it happened and i go over and over it. None of them have contqcted me since. I just want to be with mum to say all the things i never said.
