Hi Gutted44InShock,

I'm so very sorry for your loss. 

At this time, so soon after the your mums passing; you're right, whatever anyone does, it doesn't lessen the pain. Your grief ; even for those who have experienced the same loss, they can only understand a little of what you must be feeling but when you say the pain is unbearable, I can relate to that. Definitely the shock because that's what is is. 

My beautiful mum died of blood cancer just over 3 years ago and I think about her every day. The most honest thing somebody told me on the day mum died was that 'you don't get over it'. That is true but you do have to try and come to terms with it, I'm still on my journey but I will say that the raw pain does ease. But you have to let yourself grieve whenever that moment is, I've sobbed in front of strangers in a supermarket, there is no time limit, whatever you feel at any time is normal. As you said, even now, it's difficult to grasp that my mum is gone, I would do anything, anything to have her back, I know that feeling. 

I believe that our mum's are still around in spirit, they want us to smile but understand when we cry. A few people on this forum say that they 'talk' to a photo of their mum, I do that, I don't want to leave mum out of my day. I found just going out for a walk helped and certainly coming onto this forum, others that can relate to what you're going through.My GP was very good too and although I didn't take any prescription drugs, I found natural lavender tablets helped me personally.

Don't think or worry about being snappy, I have since retired but was in a business to business role, I was always surprised nobody reported me for being 'so angry'! I promise , you will be stronger than you think, it's such a hard journey and it must look never-ending at the moment, people say that you have to take a day at a time or even an hour at a time, no right or wrong way. 

 I wish you all the strength, hope you will be ok at the funeral and you have family to help at this difficult time. Come back onto this forum if it helps.

xx 

Hi Gutted44InShock,

I'm so very sorry for your loss. 

At this time, so soon after the your mums passing; you're right, whatever anyone does, it doesn't lessen the pain. Your grief ; even for those who have experienced the same loss, they can only understand a little of what you must be feeling but when you say the pain is unbearable, I can relate to that. Definitely the shock because that's what is is. 

My beautiful mum died of blood cancer just over 3 years ago and I think about her every day. The most honest thing somebody told me on the day mum died was that 'you don't get over it'. That is true but you do have to try and come to terms with it, I'm still on my journey but I will say that the raw pain does ease. But you have to let yourself grieve whenever that moment is, I've sobbed in front of strangers in a supermarket, there is no time limit, whatever you feel at any time is normal. As you said, even now, it's difficult to grasp that my mum is gone, I would do anything, anything to have her back, I know that feeling. 

I believe that our mum's are still around in spirit, they want us to smile but understand when we cry. A few people on this forum say that they 'talk' to a photo of their mum, I do that, I don't want to leave mum out of my day. I found just going out for a walk helped and certainly coming onto this forum, others that can relate to what you're going through.My GP was very good too and although I didn't take any prescription drugs, I found natural lavender tablets helped me personally.

Don't think or worry about being snappy, I have since retired but was in a business to business role, I was always surprised nobody reported me for being 'so angry'! I promise , you will be stronger than you think, it's such a hard journey and it must look never-ending at the moment, people say that you have to take a day at a time or even an hour at a time, no right or wrong way. 

 I wish you all the strength, hope you will be ok at the funeral and you have family to help at this difficult time. Come back onto this forum if it helps.

xx