Hello I lost my dad to pancreatic cancer last march. Iam not coping I feel so upset I miss my dad so so much I feel lost without him I think about him every single day. I cant sleep I feel so empty and a constant sadness it won't go away. It's been 17 months since my dad passed and I feel like it was yesterday every single day My dad was only 58 and up until his diagnosis he was as fit as a fiddle hes never been to a doctor all of his adult life. He got his diagnosis of his pancreatic cancer and within 4 weeks he was gone it all happened so fast one minute he was fine and the thing he was gone I didnt have time to take it all in. Then because of the covid pandemic my dads funeral took place a few days after we went into lockdown. There was only 10 of us at my dads funeral it felt so wrong that all his family and friends couldn't be there and they were watching my dads funeral through a live feed no one deserves a funeral like that A funeral is when all your loved friends and family should be there to comfort each other. But my dad and so many others didn't get the funeral where everyone was there together . I felt so alone at my dads funeral standing 2 meters away from my brothers and sisters. Even though we were there it just felt so strange and different. I dont know what to do I feel so upset and angry I miss my dad I just want him back is there anyone on here that could help me. Thank you
