I am so sorry for your loss. I wish I had words of reassurance but know you're not alone and you will find much support on the chat forum. Take each day at a time, try do little things - although I know may be difficult - such as a walk. Just sitting with someone and talking/crying about how you feel even if you have to do it each day. 
 

I wish you healing and happiness in the months and years to come, and I hope you find the forum helpful. I'm sorry I couldn't be of more help as it's nothing something I have been through but I wanted to reply to let you know we are all here for you and I am thinking of you and hopefully others on the forum will be able to offer advice and hope.

Thankyou for your kind words and for replying to my post i was with my mum every step of the way the day she got told she had 3 months to live I hid that information from mum even though they told her the cancer was back I told her don't listen mum they suspect it but don't no and she believed she would get better I cared for her 24/7 and mum lived the 3 months 1 day extra and I'm so thankful I could give something back to her after all her care she gave me my mum was my everything and I'm so broken every day is a massive effort at the moment for me I have a brother and a sister older yet I'm the one arranged and doing everything with no help it's so wrong but I'm doing this for my mum take care   ️