Over the last 6 months my grandad was diagnosed with cancer.... 3 weeks ago my grandad collapsed and I brought him back. I shouldn't of done this but my Nan and my 15 year old daughter were there and I couldn't let them see this. From there I nursed him for the following 36 hours till he parted a peaceful goodbye. I'm struggling to get my head around this and am resentful towards myself daily. Any help??