Hello

I lost my wonderful mum a few days ago after a very short period of illness. My dad and I cared for her at home until it got too much for us to provide the care she needed. We were with her when she passed and slept in her room at the hospital for two nights as we feared we wouldn't be there when 'it happened.' We are both devestated. My parents were married for 47 very happy years and she was the best mum I could have wished for. I am an only child too and I feel absolutely heartbroken and cheated. I keep reliving the time we spent with her in the hospital and because Im home helping dad everything reminds me of her. I feel sick to my stomach and although we have a good support network, nothing cuts it. Mum had literally never been ill in her life until her diagnosis in May. She barely got colds or flu and was an active 73 year old so this has come as a massive shock. It breaks my heart just thinking of what she went through even though she never had any pain throughout her illness. Life seems so pointless now. People keep saying, 'oh you'll deal with it in time' but it does not feel like that now. Thanks for listening. 
 

Al