I am still in shock... My Dad's GP was investigating the cause of anemia which was found on a routine blood test.  He'd had scans and Xrays but the cause of the anemia was not found. Then he suddenly had pains in his chest and arm so spent 10 days in hospital for a suspected heart attack.  A CT scan showed that he had stage 4 lung cancer and he was discharged!.  I know the NHS is under pressure, but how can someone tell another person that they have stage 4 cancer and then discharge them with no help being in place by the hospital or GP.  

I was contacting his GP for help but the new process due to Covid lead to more delay. By the time his GP contacted me, his condition was worse and I had to get him back into A&E.

Whilst in A&E I found out that the lung cancer had spread from his lungs, to his liver and bones (something that my Dad had kept to himself, I guess he was trying to protect me and the family).  Now the  DR  believed the cancer has spread to his brain.  The DR gave him 24 hours to respond to treatment and if he did not respond the DR would withdraw treatment.  There was no time to process anything, everyone was in shock. 

Just like that my Dad's treatment was withdrawn the following day. He passed away within 48 hours after that; I was very lucky to be able to spend time with my Dad right until the end, many loved ones have not been able to do this with Covid and for that I am truely thankful. 

I wish I could be someone who can say my Dad passed peacefully, but I can't. In my experience, animals are treated with more dignity than my Dad received.   My Dad deserved better treatment than this, I feel numb, empty and I am not sure how I can accept the loss of my Dad. 

Has anyone had a similar experience/feel similar?  How do you move through this?