not going to argue with you on that score mossie. My wife died in July 2020. anything sets me off. I live alone now. though I do have two grown up kids. But the night time is when I think about my wife.  I wish I could focus on happier memories,  But all I ever remember is the painful death she had to endure.

I know assisted deaths are a criminal offence in the UK. But when the wife is cying in so much pain and is begging the MacMillan nurse to give her an overdose to  end it all.  Yet a judge can order a life support machine to be switched off. where is the justice in that. I'm going to finish this post my key board is getting soacking wet with my tears. your not alone Mossie we all have these moments. it's part of the greif process. best wishes.

I’m so sorry those visions never leave you it’s horrible my husband went quite peacefully but remembering the last few months of his life were he  was deteriorating every day it’s sad I’m on my own and it’s trying to get used to it you take care annie x

I feel this lost my dad in January and the pain doesn't end seeing them deteriorate is the worst thing ever I'm only 20 then lost my gran a few months later to the same illness :( always here if you need a chat xx

Morning Natalie The deterioration is the worst thing my husband went from a very strong man but after his diagnosis in February 2020 he was a paramedic and never lost a days work up till then but I’m here if you need to chat big hugs annie x x

My dad was a very strong man aswell he had his own business he got diagnosed when I was just 12 and didn't make it to my 20th honestly it's heartbreaking seeing them suffer xx

take care xx

Hello I know exactly how you are feeling I lost my wonderful husband in December 2020 and I still can't believe he's gone. It's such a cruel disease they don't deserve any if it. I wake up every night and can't get all the things he went through and his passing out of my head, I have to put the tv on just to have noise in the background. We'd been together 43 years and married in 1980 I live alone and find going back there so hard with him not being there and the quiet is deafening if you get what I mean. I'm really struggling with it coming up to the year anniversary he passed on the 12th dec his birthday is on the 17th and then Christmas which means nothing to me now. Nobody fully understands what we're going through you can try and explain it but they don't get it. Take care of yourself Elaine x

Thanks Elaine johns memory 11th November and don’t know what to do  and your Wright they don’t understand I have 2grown up children and try not to let me cry but I cry a lot more than ever but keep it to myself you take care of yourself lv annie x x

Always here for each other Sadie we had Xmas 5weeks after john had died it was hard is Xmas was johns favourite time of year  thinking of you on Friday hugs annie x