Don't know what to say without sounding like I'm feeling sore for myself, I've got covid, out of isolation Tuesday, but my emotions are overwhelming, it's the first time I've been really poorly, without my husband here . Just that comforting feeling, they're there makes all the difference. I don't want this new life without him . I loved our old life . I'm going to the hospice for counselling next week , I know I need it . Can't stop crying and want to stay in bed .