I lost my dad 5 weeks ago on Monday, he died in hospital of billary sepsis due to collecterol cancer metastases on his liver. He died quite rapidly and it came as a big shock as I'd spoken to him on the morning and he seemed fine.

Since his death I have felt numb to all emotion. I have had a few tears here and there but not much. I feel like such a bad person as I havent cried more. I miss him so much. I still expect him to come walking threw my door with sweets for my children as he would do this alot. It doesn't feel real that he isn't coming back. My life at the moment feels like a dream is this normal. 

I always expected myself to be completely distraught when he did finally pass away and it seems to have gone the opposite and I just don't feel anything. 

I don't feel like i am able to grieve.