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Dont know how I will get through this

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It will be a week tomorrow that I lost my mom, my best friend. I'm still waiting to wake up from this nightmare, every day is getting harder and I cant stop crying.  I really dont think I can cope anymore.

I left work as a TA in July to take care of my mom, school have been amazing but I cant face even thinking about going back. 

I just dont know what to do

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    I'm so very sorry. My mam has a couple of months left they say. Your pain sounds so raw. I can only imagine. When I dare to think about losing my mam, it feels like O might get hysterical so I suppress the thought - not healthy. Wish I could give you a hug. Thinking of you xxxxxx

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    Thanks for your message and I'm so sorry you are going through it too. I dont know how I got through it but we were all focused on what mom needed and researching everything and just being there.  We knew it was coming but I dony think I fully believed the diagnosis until now.

    I'm now trying to stay strong for my dad but just want to run away and scream. 

    If you need to talk I'm here, not sure if you're like me but I've been in a daze from the moment mom was diagnosed, cant focus on anything-  everything seems so insignificant.

    Take care and stay strong xxx

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    Hello [@NicjAnd]‍ 

    I'm very sorry to hear about your mum and everything that you are going through. I can relate to you because my mum died in March after a late diagnosis in February. After she was diagnosed, I also become her main carer, and the whole thing was extremely traumatic for me. I went through all the emotions and feelings of guilt, confusion, shock, extreme sadness, denial - I supposed now, months later, I'm just feeling numb.

    You will get through it, but things will never be the same. I went through bereavement counselling, which personally helped me tremendously to get through things directly after mum's death. So, if things are getting too much, it might be something worth considering.

    Take care and virtual hug

     

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