My mum died only two days ago, she was diagnosed in March with metastatic lung cancer, she struggled for over a year before, had a few falls and she kept putting the pain in her back to the falls, eventually doctor sent her for a CT scan and we got the bad news.. she has lasted just over 5 months and she fought till the very end.. l can't get the image out of my head of the days leading up to her death, just watching her shut down and slip away, now is haunting me.. the doctor's said that she won't be in any pain and l really hope that was true. I am struggling to cope as she was my best friend, spoke everyday and seen her all the time.. l feel lost, can't explain this pain l feel, it's just horrendous.. just want to go to an empty beach and scream.. does this pain get easier?
