Hello, I wanted to reply to you as I know how you're feeling. My mum passed away very suddenly after a very short diagnosis with cancer, and since then my brother and I have both been at home with my dad (my mum was only 55, my dad is 61), and I, like you, feel incredible guilt for leaving my dad by himself, but I think what I keep telling myself is that my dad wouldn't want me to put my entire life on hold (my mum also told all of us this when she was in the hospice). I think if you're a naturally caring person your gut instinct is to want to help him, but I think there comes a point where you all need to fall into what will be a new normal, and that normal isn't being around each other 24/7 as I genuinely think it does prolonge the ability to grieve as individuals. 

Your dad clearly knows how loved he is by you, and I genuinely think he would be so grateful for all you have done for both him and your mum.

Lots of love xxx

Hi Newlife101, thanks for your reply. I'm really sorry for your loss too. I agree about it being important for moving on and I think people deserve to have their own space etc. If dad ever became unwell himself I would of course do the same for him and come to care for him (if he wanted me to). But I think moving somewhere that both suits us and is close enough to visit him is a good next step even if it feels horrible. To be fair, not much has felt right since mum passed away. 

Thanks again for your kind words and best of luck to you in your own situation xx