We lost mum on the 18th April. It was after 2 bouts of cancer, all the chemo, radiation, mastectomys etc and being told by her doctor in December last year that she could put it behind her and move on with her life. She collapsed in February with seizures and it all went downhill so quickly it chokes me to think about it. It has destroyed me and our family circle in general. She was our person, me and my 2 siblings. I suffer from significant enough mental health problems and she was literally the only person I would talk to pretty much. She is still one of my most frequently contacted numbers for example after 3 months of not being here.

I hate this place so much now, it has lost its sparkle. It just isn't special anymore. And all of mums wishes were not followed by my stepdad which makes this whole process even more awful than it needed to be. I wish we had more time and wish you could have seen what has happened since because you would never have let any of it happen. Always had a solution for any problems, now we just have problems. 

Miss you ma xx