I'm 16 years old and my mum died just over 3 years ago. At the moment especially, it's just been so hard. I can barely make it through a single day without having a breakdown. Grappling with the knowledge that i'll never see her again feels unbearable. I feel so much grief over the fact that i'll never have an adult relationship with her, you know? She was such an intelligent, funny and beautiful person but I never fully got to appreciate that and never will.

Does this ever go away? Or at least stop feeling so bad? It just hurts so much.