I lost my Mum to cancer three years ago we did everything as a family myself youngest sister eldest sister and brother in law. 
Mum died of Cancerous lumps round her sides and back, but initially she passed a growth from her womb it looked like a sheep's hearts did same size. It was sent to London then Ireland and finally to top man on the subject in America the like of such had not been seen before. We did everything we could for Mum and nursed her at home till she passed away. l am happy we did all we could as a family too help her in her last months and weeks. I don't struggle with her loss we never let her down.  My Dad however had hardening of the lungs and passed away in 2009 l miss him terribly l talk too him when I'm alone and ask for help when l get frustrated in my workshop. Sounds silly l know but l can't help it. His birthday and Father's Day are close together l fall apart every year when it's that time I've cried thousands of tears but it doesn't go away. Two parents gone loved them both too bits but just can't get over Dad does anyone else feel like this ??          Thanks for reading my thoughts.
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