Raw pain

My mum died this morning killed by ovarian cancer. She went downhill in days, nausea and sickness then yesterday slipped in unconsciousness and died at home this morning, with me, my brother and dad all with her. It was peaceful and calm at the end for which we are so grateful. 

But I'm in so much pain, all I can hear is her breathing in her last few hours and all I can see is her body giving up, the look.on her face and her lifeless body at the end. I just don't know what to do to stop this and give myself a break. I haven't slept since Thursday night and can't now. I just want some reassurance that this will stop! Help me please.

 

  • Aww bless you x

    I was with my mum when she passed and I remember the last breaths she took.. But it does ease... I promise you.

    I'm sending you my Condolences and a virtual hug xx

  • Thank you so much for taking the time to reply and reassure. So sorry that you went through this too but it means a lot to know it will pass. Could use a hug right now xx

  • It's a reassuring hug..

    Your mum will walk beside you everyday xx

  • Hi [@CatWin]‍ 

    I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your Mum. 
    It has now been over 6 weeks since my Mum died of lung cancer and I just wanted to reassure you that those last images you have will begin to fade. Like you, I was haunted by those last images and as a result struggled to remember my Mum happy and healthy. I had many, many sleepless nights in the first couple of weeks after her death and thought I'd never have a full nights sleep again.

    Although I still miss my Mum terribly and I still don't feel ok without her, I'm sleeping better and those last images I had of her are being replaced by all the wonderful memories I have. I still think about her every minute of every day but I'm able to focus more on the good times rather than her final day. I think what has been helping me is letting every emotion out. Keep talking about how you feel, don't bottle anything up. Even write down every single raw feeling you're having. It's cathartic.

    I'm here if you need to talk.

    Take care,

    J