I just hate night times my head wont switch .sam passed on the 27 th april at 25 .he was only poorly for four months cancer .i hate that bloody word .took my beautiful loving boy from a family that adored him . I have this terrible feeling .waiting searching .wanting to touch him .speak to him i have so much to say. He was our superhero.  This life is so cruel. Im scared for the future . Too much sadness . Sorry just needed to vent . I know so many are suffering . Love to you all zoe x