Hi all . I am on here I guess to share my story . My mum was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer 27 months ago. Mum has really struggled over the past year spending most of the time In the hospice . Mum was also suffering with copd and fibrosis of the lungs then got covid. She was amazing she kept fighting , doctors were amazed by her . I was told 6 times in the past year it was time but she kept probing them Wrong. Last week things got so hard for her she was asking me and the doctor when will this all end at this point the doc advised to make her a bit more sleepy to ease the pain / suffering of gasping for each breath . We both agreed this was best . In my mind they would sedate her and she would gradually pass away peacefully but this was not to happen . Mum faught the sedation and it was like a scene from a horror for days she would wake so anxious asking me to help her . This was so traumatic for mum, and for me to watch. They gave her injection after injection a total of 170 over 3 days . They eventually topped up the sedation which allowed her to be asleep all of the time . Mum continued to struggle for a further day and a half and finally on Sunday morning 30 may 2021 she took her last breath at 07:35am . My heart is broken she was not only my mum but my best friend. Why did she need to suffer so bad in the end ? Nothing can ever prepare you for losing your mum let alone seeing everything go on so long and feel So wrong. I need to make the funeral arrangements today my head is all over the place . I am struggling obviously losing my mum but the way she died will haunt me forever . Xx
