Hello everone, in late January this year 2021 my husband began to feel unwell with a pain under right rib,his urine was cola,coloured, he then developed a pain in his right leg and tightness in his chest.3 telephone consultations and blood tests antibiotics, he had MRI scans which showed he had cancer in his pancreas and liver,he was admitted to hospital when 2 days later,  they rang me and said he had septacemia , I was allowed to see him so knew it was very serious, he died 7 days later, it all happened in 8 weeks,and such a shock.we had been married 47 years,my soul mate.I'm just about coping,all my family live in different parts of the country,but phone me every day.I am so lonely without him, I've moved to sit where he sat, so I don't keep looking across the room for him.it's 8 weeks ago today.I'm heartbroken the  speed of it such a shock to me and our two sons.how do I carry the pain in my heart.Is sometimes unbearable.