Hurts so much

I lost mum and best friend on the 8th March 21 after a short fight. I was lucky enough to be with when she fell asleep, I felt like I was ready for what was coming and when she did go I was so relived that she didn't have to fight anymore and that she was is no more pain. Totally heart broke with the ' I'm ok mask on ' I went back to work as I felt like I needed to carry on, keep my mind busy. I have a 13 year old so it easy keeping busy! But The last few weeks I've struggled (the weathers not helping) I'm ok while I'm busy but as soon as I sit or stop all I do is cry. I'm exhausted I know I need to slow down and stop but every time I do my heart breaks.

is this normal?? 

 

  • I'm so sorry. I also lost my beautiful mum on 2nd March ten weeks and one day after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I know how you feel, heartbroken. I've recently started counselling which is helping me already by releasing some feelings. From what my counsellor says this sounds very normal. Being struck suddenly like a punch in the stomach is very common when grieving. The problem is you can't be busy all the time, you must have down time, you must feel everything. It's the worst thing that had happened and some days I still can't believe it. If you need a chat I'm here for you, reading your post really made me want to reach out to you, it's a lonely process. 

  • Thank you for taking the time to reply, I'm sorry for your loss. I know I just need to grieve and take one day at a time and I also know it's still very early days for both of us. Will get there ️