My mum is gone and I don’t know what to do

I feel like it's getting worse. My mum died 2 months ago, it all happened so quickly. She was FINE, better than fine, she looked amazing and other than feeling tired she was doing well. From her diagnosis to her death was less than 6 months. 
It's all been a blur and I thought I was dealing with it but I literally just don't believe it. She's invincible, unbreakable ... it can't be possible to even begin to think she's no longer here. 
I don't want to live my life without her. 
Will it ever not feel so much like I'm being torn apart?

  • Hi FrankieMay,

    I'm sorry to hear about your mother, I lost my mum three years ago in June and it all happened in the space of a few months too. The first year of grieving her I felt like everyday was a blur and nothing was real. I wondered the same, thinking would I ever finally truly be happy again. I still get days where I don't have energy to do anything and just feel sad and miss her so much, but you have to remember she wouldn't want that. I find motivation in thinking what would my mum want me to do, she'd want me to show the world how strong i am, and im certainly proud of myself and every single grieving daughter/son for carrying on (it certainly wont be the same life but things get better, you'll have AMAZING days where you couldn't be happier) As much as this gets said, it does get a little bit easier and better over time, even though right now you may not feel like it ever will. i promise it will. Just keep going- i know it's easier said than done but eventually it won't feel like a major struggle everyday. Sending love x

  • Hi Lia, thanks for your message and so sorry you've lost your Mum too. I try to think what would Mum want me to do and sometimes it helps but right now I'm just struggling with what's the point of it all just now, we're going to have to go through this with other people we love too and it's just so hard. I think I'm just having a downer just now. I'm proud of us too Sending love right back xxx