Hi there

I have read some stories about people's stories loosing thier mum but my mum, who was misdiagnosed with arthritus found out she had a tumour which was too late to help with.  Even in November she was told she had years to live by the consultant and she then passed on 28th December.

My question is, it's hard enough loosing a mum but what I can't relate to in other people's experiences is my sister died years ago, i've never met my father and my uncle was horrible to me when my mum died so i had no support and I guess i'm just dissapointed by those who are still here. My mum's sort of partner kept nagging me for 5,000 pounds that he apparently lent my mum and i gave it to him without any evidence and then he went and had my mum' and sisters grave done without even telling me (i'm not local and it was lockdown and my mum and sister are buried together).

How can people be so nasty? When people die I can't believe how grabby grabby they can be . it's driven me to a suicide attempt. I'm on the waiting list for talking therapy on the NHS but can anyone recomend free grief therapy?

I miss my mum so much but feel like I can't grieve. I can't explain it. I just feel so vacant.