Hi all,

I am wondering if anyone has gone through something similar. My father passed away in January from liver cancer, and I flew back to Australia to spend his last couple months with him. I live in the UK and usually go home to see my family a few weeks out of the year, which may be why this doesn't feel so real.

I absolutely loved my dad, he was a huge part of my life and he was only 60 when he passed. I think of him every day. I'm finding that I just feel numb to everything, but not upset. There's times where I do feel sad about his passing like whilst I write this, but I don't think it's properly sunk in that he's gone. I know he is, but my mind still thinks oh he's just in hospital like usual and he'll be there to pick me up from the airport like usual at Christmas. But I said my goodbyes, I was there when he passed, and I don't know, I feel I should be much more upset then I am. He had cancer for several years, and we knew he didn't have so many years left but he had a fantastic quality of life up until the last few months.

I suppose my question is, is there something wrong with me that I'm not feeling upset every day? That I just feel numb about everything? And does it ever sink in? Thank you