Hello T1997, 

I am so sorry for your loss. There is no right or wrong way to grieve and it is not unusual for it to still be so painful nearly a year on. Grief involves complex emotional stages that will vary from one person to another and it does take time to finally feel a little better. I thought I would share with you our page on Coping with Grief which I hope will help you understand the grieving process and give you some helpful tips. 

It sounds like you would benefit maybe from talking to your GP about it. Don't hesitate to talk to your doctor about how you have been feeling since you lost your mum. I am sure your doctor will be able to point you in the right direction and will perhaps suggest some grief counselling sessions to help you feel better. It's important to seek help if you feel it is all getting too much. 

You've also come to the right place to talk to others who have also lost a loved one to cancer and who understand how you are feeling at the moment. I hope they will have some good suggestions for you based on their own individual experiences of how they managed to overcome these overwhelming feelings. We're thinking of you during this difficult time and we are here for you anytime you need to talk.

Best wishes, 

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator