My dad died in October 2020 I hurt everyday I no it's still raw but it's effecting my home life kids on egg shells wife gets most with my moods not violent ones just fly off the handle at stupid things
So sorry your going through this heartbraking time after loosing your dad ... l think loosing a parent is the second hardest thing we go through... only loosing a child is harder ..
Please get help ... you lost your dad... don't risk loosing your wife and kids too ... I know I'd not take it , so your wife must care very much ... cancer made your dad a victim of it's crulity... it wants more .. it wants everyone who cared for that person to be a victim too ..
Please remember your dad befor cancer ... he's the man that held you as a baby .. helped you to walk .. caught you when you fell ... saw you turn from a boy to a man ... im sure hed not want you to go through this now .. now is a time to hold on to your wife ... help your kids through this ... they lost a grandad .. they must feel like they are loosing their dad too ..
I'm sure you'd want your kids to love you, like you love your dad ... but that takes hard work ... putting them first ... because what you do now will stay with them as they grow ... now you need to catch them when they stumble or fall ... and know many a marriage has been chucked away because of grief .. so reach out ... you've done the first step here ... call McMillan... or cruse barevment.... ask for someone to chat with you ... before you loose that wonderful family you have now ... it's not too late to stick two fingers up to cancer ...
I know too well that pain of grief ... I lost 7 family members in the last 13 months ... the last my 18 year old granddaughter to acute myeloid leukaemia a few months ago.... she was the bravest person I know .. but her song was about remembering the good times.... so I've put two fingers up to cancer too ... I'll remember the good times too .. and hold all the family I have close to my heart .. because we can loose any one of them at any time ... I'm sure your dad would say " come on lad... I'm not gone ... I'm just waiting " and when he sees you be kinder ... l bet he'll be really proud of his lad .... x
Be kind to yourself... Grief has no bounds or time, Its OK.The fact that you are alreadly reaching out is such a blessing. Its going to be ok! xx Listen to your heart and find comfort in whatever eases your soul. xx
