Loss of my Father at 51 my best friend

 

I’m 35 years old and lost my Dad and best friend on the 18th Feb after 2 years of battling cancer at age 51, he was diagnosed in June 2018 with Limthnode cancer and Lung Cancer my Dad worked and lived in Liverpool for past 10 years but came home most weekends to Darlington to his wife.
When we found out in 2018 I broke down but he was a fighter he had chemo, radiotherapy, immunotherapy all from clatterbridge which was a amazing to my Dad.
My Dad was a Groundwork in Liverpool and he would have chemo on a Tuesday and back at work the day after his work mates carried him so well.
March 2020 lockdown came in and he was told to lockdown first lockdown we all worried not knowing what was going on he was off for 7 weeks and I believe this made him detreate. He went back to work in the May and was never happier.
My Dad managed to walk me down the aisle August 2020. 
December 2020 he came home after radiotherapy he was so poorly and deteriated so quickly he had a blot clot on his lung and was took in hospital 14th February he was tiny and cause he was only classed as palative care we couldn’t see him he was due to come home the 18th February but sadly died at 12.45 he was fed up he really was.I no how many people struggle and die of this awful disease and I understand everyone loses someone they love but when you lose someone who's your world you really don't think about anyone else but I do get strength from others dealing with loss cause it makes me realise I'm not alone.
He was amazing to fight for so long and my best friend im lost and not sure what to think or do right now I need a sign he's ok and still with me.

  • Hi Charlene85,

    I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your Dad. I can only imagine how difficult this must be and continues to be. It sounds like it's been a tough couple of years for all of you, although I'm glad to hear he was able to be there at your wedding. I'm sure there are some lovely memories to look back on.

    I know there are others here who are perhaps going through something similar, so I hope the forum can provide some small support to you - and it's often helpful to simply write things down too.

    If you ever feel you'd like to explore additional support for your loss, do have a look at the organisation Cruse as they have a range of support options.

    Wishing you all the best,

    Ben
    Cancer Chat Moderator