Its been close to a year and i miss him so so so much. I put up a brave front for my mum but i am so sad inside. I live my normal day to day life but have lost the sense of joy. I meditate and read up on spirituality as my coping mechanism however that doesn't lessen the pain inside. I wish i could see him again and give him a hug. I just want him to know i really love him and miss him. I know i will always miss him and the void will stay but hope the pain gets better.