Its my partners funeral on Wednesday and I just feel like my insides are being ripped apart I can't believe this pain can be so strong. After 23yrs of happiness how something can be destroyed so quickly through cancer how do you carry on.
Hi mate sent you a text with my number you should find me on WhatsApp
The funeral went alot better than I thought it would, obviously it was very emotional but like you said it gave me some kind of pleasure knowing that everyone wanted to be there to celebrate Annie's life and all felt the same about her as me . Only now I am on my own with my memories and thoughts just thinking what we would be doing now if she was still here and all you hear on telly is about covid and how people will be going on holidays again this year and things will soon be back to normal and I just feel like shouting 'not for me things will never be normal or back to how they were ' I don't no what happens now just keep trying to get through every day.
I sent you a private message mate! my mistake I gave the wrong phone number!
I'm glad the funeral went okay for you I remembered my wife's when I was in there it was like I don't want it to finish that sounds strange but everybody was talking about her and I like that! As for tv and Covid going and everyone getting on with their lives that's where it gets hard I'm like that now but try and turn a lot of telly off I typed on YouTube Dealing with grief losing your wife to cancer lots of amazing stories on there even been watching near death experiences where the person says he's been to heaven that gives me comfort knowing that she is there and there is such a place I also watch Matt Fraser the medium and think one day when I'm ready I might give that a go all these well worth a watch there's also something called Ted dealing with grief and that's people have had the same experience and then I'm on the other side all this helps me but I have to be in the mood to watch! The next few days are going to be really hard for you that's me saying the truth I remember the few days after the funeral it was like that what is that it? no it's not it mate you must take your time getting through this even what I said then is wrong you don't get through it you move forward with grief
as for me I'm the same I take each day as it comes I still have more bad days than good days still can't believe my wife had to die 39 don't make much sense to me but unfortunately life goes on and I'm sure your partner if you want to carry on like I said been thinking about you all day
