Hey, so;

I'm a 23 year old. Around 2 years ago, my father passed away after a short fight with Tonsil Cancer. He, unfortunately, was allergic to penicillin, which complicated his treatment (or so I'm told). He was diagnosed around June 2018, before passing around the end of January 2019. I'll spare the difficult details because they aren't relevant to this post.

The reason I'm posting is his passing left me not only with the pain that losing someone so close to illness leaves, but with a very annoying and persistent paranoid fear that I, too, have some form of malignant cancer (and specifically an ENT cancer, at that) brewing underneath. I constantly obsess to no end over the wee niggle I feel *somewhere* in my throat, or a wee scrape on my mouth that I am absolutely CONVINCED is a symptom of something... until it heals up a day or two later.

Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with being vigilant when it comes to your health, and in fairness, speaking to a doctor about one of those wee itches did result in a diagnosis of a gastro-reflux disorder, which I am now treating. So that's grand.

But regardless, I still constantly obsess over small, insignificant things that I am constantly sure is the thing that'll kill me. 

Does anyone else have experience with this kind of health anxiety after losing a loved one to cancer? Is there anyway I can effectively treat this, for lack of a better phrase, mental condition that I'm experiencing?

Thanks, 

Nordie.