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Feeling overwhelmed after my Dads funeral

Lyns118
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I had my Dads funeral on Friday - almost a month after he passed away from Pancreatic Cancer and I'm not really sure what to do. If you'd said to me a year ago that my Dad wouldn't be here now I would never have believed you. He seemed fit and healthy and was only 69 then - but the last year has been horrendous with ups and downs of hope after his successful operation and then downs after two awful reactions to chemo. We thought he was cancer free and then everything just started to go wrong and on New Years Eve I got a call from the Dr to say there was nothing more they could do. Heartbroken doesn't even cover it. Dad came home on the 6th January and I looked after him right to the end with family. I was there at the end holding his hand and I'd had the time to say everything I wanted to - but no amount of time would have been enough. I'm 37 and lost my Mum 11 years ago. Dad was absolutely everything to me and I feel so lost without him. I thought the funeral might make me feel a little more at peace with it, but I feel so much worse - like it's over and I'm supposed to carry on. I've got 2 sons 5 and under so I'm busy but I just feel so overwhelmed with everything 

  • Offline in reply to Nannynoo

    Hello, 

    I'm so so sorry for your loss. We managed to keep my Dad at home as well as he had wanted to be home and I focus on the fact that - no matter how heartbreaking it was (and still is) to have gone through that, we managed to fulfil his wish of being with us, at home when he passed away. We managed to say everything that we wanted to and that's also something that would have meant so much to him and to us. You did the same for your Dad which is an incredible thing to do and even though there's nothing anyone can say or do to make tomorrow easier, you will get through his funeral, you will find the strength I promise you. 
    Sending you love and strength for tomorrow xx

  • Offline in reply to Lyns118

    Hi . Just want to thankyou for your support.  I got through Dad's funeral and even found the strength I needed, to get up and speak . I wanted a day that celebrated his life and we had 64 pics of Dad played on a screen , to My Way . People smiled and mentioned their memories and it was actually quite lovely , to pay tribute to the wonderful man he was . I Don't know where my strength has come from , these past few months , but I'm thankful I found it from the love I have for him . But the tears and the pain of his loss remain .. . I think they always will . Xx

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