Hi Chris I can relate to your feelings nothing prepares you for this and two young children without their mum. . I knew my daughter was terminally ill and we always hoped there would be new treatments but it wasn't to be. Have you thought of counselling? I promise my daughter I would get help not sure how much it will help, I just want her back. Thinking of you Janet. 

This is all so wrong , my heart aches for you both , I had bc 2013 , after few ops , horrendous chemo and Rads I started to build my life aagain and go back to work as a nurse . Soon after that my partner was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer ( I honestly couldn't believe we were back at the start again , after a massive op , chemo and rads we managed a year with what seemed like a cancer free life, but oh no !! His cancer is back , high tumour markers , another round of chemo ( not much effect ) now it's wrapped around the hepatic artery so it's just a matter or time we've been told !! I hate the word cancer I'm sick of it !!! I'm so sorry for you both , no way should children go before parents xx Any wise words I'd be very grateful for , he is suffering massive anxiety at the moment I'm trying to work and support him , I feel I'm failing him . Bless you both xxxxx

So sorry to hear of your situation it's very hard any cancer journey. 

My daughter found meditation help with anxiety and listening to her music.

We all try our best and be the listening ear and I am sure you are a good support we all feel helpless at times. 

Kind thoughts. Janet