I am someone who has lost someone dear to me to this disease and my dad is currently battling stage 4, so I do 'somewhat understand the anguish and ups and downs.
There is little I can say other than that I am so very sorry for your loss and if you ever want to talk I am here. You are not alone.
I'm sorry for your loss moving out so soon must be horrible I don't think I could do that if I'm honest! I lost my wife to breast cancer on the 22nd of December last year Cancer has ruined my life I taking the love of my life leaving me to young boys! The thought of going through her stuff is was to early so I can't imagine the pain your going through . Here if you want to talk
Jan 2020 my husband diagnosed, had surgery day after to remove spine tumour and came home unable to walk, with terminal lung cancer. Had physio then cancelled due to covid. I got him walking behind his wheelchair. Got married 31st March had planned massive wedding for Easter Saturday but cancelled due to covid. July lost my job due to covid. Got eviction notice for no reason. Dec he stopped eating and I had to watch him slowly die. Jan 2021 he died. I hate covid and I hate my landlord hope he gets karma.
I have no family to support me, my friends can't support me due to covid. Actually wish I had died with him. Don't worry not suicidal just very very sad. Cry all the time, like my heart has broken I just want him back
I understand what you're saying about dying I feel the same a lot I gave my word I look after the children till it's my time so that's what I've got to do! I'm sorry your in a mess there must be some one who can help? Crying is good you must get it all out I'm 8 weeks on and still crying! Where in the Uk are you from?
Drinking wine, probably not a good idea. Another evening all alone. Feeling sorry for myself. Saturdays before he was ill were spent having a nice meal (loved to cook) and bottle of wine watching a film, or going out. How things have changed.
I have a two year old and a nine year old so keep me busy My wife was 39 when she died I'm 40! But as soon as the kids are asleep that's when it really hits me I drink wine to then
I miss all the little things Like when she's having a shower hiding behind the door but obviously she knew I was there.Or even just cuddling on the sofa So I completely understand what you're saying it's horrible
