My beautiful daddy past away on the 24/4/2020 after a short battle with lung cancer he found out in Dec it was lung cancer was told on the 6 Feb 2020 it was terminal and that he had a max of 2 months he contracted phenmonia and went down hill very quickly from there then we went in lockdown and I couldn't do any thing I couldn't visit I could be with him when he took his final breath he was scared and alone I hold so much guilt I should of been there and not even 2 moth later he was gone I couldn't be with him I never got to say goodbye or give him one last kiss. Now I'm facing his first ever birthday without him an I don't know how to cope it hurts so much I never felt pain like it xx HELP
